Cyber Love

You beeped "Hi" and my "Hello" shifted from sappy jokes to maudlin visions of romance.

I hate cheesy conversations but ours just tickled my walled and calloused heart.

I asked for the truth but you chose to deceive me.

I soared into cloud nine but you pulled me down with your lie.

Your avowals drowned me but your melancholic past breathed air into my choking heart.

And I gave you that second chance we both deserve. I can't help it, I have affinity for the broken.

Maybe because I see a part of me in you that was never loved, trying to fit in and hungry for home.

I decided to love you despite it all and when I saw your imperfections, I have loved you even more.  

It was a choice up to now I'm elated to have made.

Even though you are someone from the other side of my monitor, I have learned to love you.

I love you not because our dirty talks aroused me but because your intelligence is sexy.

I love you not because you have wits but because your silly jokes make me genuinely laugh.

It seems like I have known you my entire life and we agree on almost anything.

I love to hear your voice and pixelated face at night.

I love how your voice sounds, so boyish and sweet although it cracks sometimes due to crappy connections.

I love the way you sweep off your bangs and how you grin although at times it freezes.

I love you not because of the superficial things you can offer me.

But it's because of the admirable traits you don't know you have.

And finally, when I saw, held and kissed you that night, I just knew it was you. 

To me you are amazing. I wonder why some people can't see that but I guess that's their problem, not yours.

I am glad my impulsive typing on the keyboard turned a simple Hi into quixotic I love yous and a promise of forever. 

I love you my cyber love and I'm looking forward to our infinity. 

 

 

 

Reverie

     Thoughts are in disarray like this chaotic head of mine. I want them organized, put them into writing and  transform them into a poem so sublime it'll make you envisage that it's all about you. Yet you keep running in my head, round and round. You make me forget the words but I'd trade those thousand words just to see your silhouette.  Your visage radiates in my head it blinds me but in a good way. Don't you ever get tired? I don't think so because I won't let you. I want you there. No, I love you in there even if it meant sleepless nights. You wake me up in the wee hours and it seems prevalent these past months. You are my first thought. I wake up because of you. It's always you. I love you and I never want to end this euphoria, not today, not in forever. The fire you kindled in my heart is always burning, walloping. I wish you could see it, feel it.

 

 



I love you and I miss you. Everyday. Believe me when I say I do.

Share My Sunrise

 

 

 

The winter chill of this Arabian desert is piercing me from skin to bones.

I can't wait for the sun to rise.

I can't wait for it to envelope this cold and foggy morning with it's warmth and glow.

How it scares the shadows wrapping the small mosque not far from me is truly picturesque.

How it makes the tips of the dates' leaves sparkly is captivating.

My view here is magnificent as I wait for the tots to come. 

I wish you're here with me, sharing this breathtaking moment together.

I hope one day we could have memories of watching the sun rise and seeing the world wake up with only our synced heartbeats as melody.

Maybe one day I can finally whisper I love you while we stand hand in hand under the blue and tangerine sky.

 

 

Remembering 2013!

A happy new year!

It's been a long while since the last time I visited and posted something on this blog. I was occupied with work, friends and family, making goals and fulfilling some of my dreams. I'm glad to be back!

The 2013 was very dramatic for many of us especially to many of my countrymen who were devastated by the supertyphoon Haiyan. My heart goes to them and with that I realized that many of us are fortunate to be able to make it to another day. We all had our share of ups and downs and 2013 for me was more of making major decisions in life.

I finally decided to let go and forgive those who have hurt me and done me wrong. I'm glad I did because it would've been a waste of great memories and precious times if I hadn't done so. It's a nice feeling to finally able to move on and let go of the bad experiences of the past. :-)

When 2013 commenced, I decided to make some of my plans into actions. However, I got a bit hesitant to start because of the risks. After many contemplations, I decided to try. I started makig things happen and checked some of the items on my bucketlists. I quit my job that I kinda like. It was a battle fought hard and when I thought I was losing, there's always this Hand that always told me to not stop.

2014 is a new year and a new challenge. My motto is to think positive and let the flow of life take me to where I want to go. Cheers!